playing russian roulette with ptsd anxiety and depression
which will i feel today is the question
will i get a blast from the past?
be reminded of all those times i got harassed?
is it time to flashback the torture?
is it time to flashback the trauma?
or will anxiety take the centre stage?
will she make me feel unwelcome and strange?
will i be treated to a breeze of knee shaking?
will she trap me so there is no escaping?
maybe depression will come out to play?
will she force me to stay in today?
is she going to keep me in my bed chained?
will she convince me even though it is sunny it had rained?
perhaps i am lucky and they will all keep me company at the same time
treated like a prisoner for an unknown crime
i feel so special to be loved this much
i pull the trigger to test my luck
brownkiesha 